holding onto anger and the art of burning bridges

Now let me tell you something, when you burn your bridge, you don’t just burn it.

For a small bridge, I’d soak it with benzene then stick at least fifteen lbs of TNT on each end of the bridge. Then I’d press the button and watch the spectacle as I sit down and eat a cinnamon roll. Or two.

I’d stand close so I could feel the heat of the blaze and the deafening sound of explosion and the windy blow of dust and debris would kiss my face.

I’d completely annihilate other sub-bridges that branch out from that main bridge.

Here’s the tricky part: don’t go on and pretend like it didn’t happen. No. The other person (or people) at the end of the bridge(s) will notice. They will send messages. “You haven’t visited in a long while,” or, “We miss you,” or, “What the hell happened to the bridge? I thought we could remain friends.”

But it’s your choice. It’s your choice to answer them (if they ever ask questions) or to ignore them.

If the person(s) at the end of the bridge do(es) not care, then your heart will fester in anger and in pain.

Do not let that anger and pain go. They are not poison. Keep them within you. Harness their energy. Use it to fuel yourself. No energy is bad energy, unless you use it to destroy yourself. Destroying others is fine, but you’ll need to learn of the consequence. Calculate. Is it worth it?

If you think you’ve burn that bridge and yet you still feel that anger and pain and yet you believe you don’t want the person(s) at the end of that bridge to care, then it can only mean one thing: regret.

You should’ve detonated the bridge with more glory. With more power. More TNT. More fire.

You wish you could’ve built it again and destroyed it again and again and perhaps, perhaps tie that other person(s) on that bridge and watch as they burn while you eat that cinnamon roll and make a toast for life. Ha. A toast.

Still, whatever you do, hold on to that anger. Hold on to that pain. Releasing them is useless if you can’t. But remember, use that energy for your own good.

Now go and listen to Alanis Morrissette’s Jagged Little Pill.

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6 thoughts on “holding onto anger and the art of burning bridges

  1. Allowing that anger to seethe within often inexorably engenders resentment and rancour, however. Maybe you don’t have to hold on to the anger or pain, or burn the bridge – maybe you can just transcend it, and let it go. Only then might we find closure, and clarity, and tranquillity, despite the turmoil which afflicted us. Holding it within simply incarcerates us in the memory of our torment, and tempers the bondage of the darkness – that way, we may never find peace, nor liberty. Perhaps we needn’t effuse, nor retain – perhaps we can simply move on. For often our own detonation may scorch us, or asphyxiate us in its smog – or the flames rage fiercer within, until they blind us with their light, and consume us. Perhaps we can simply douse the flames, and allow the water to flow beneath the bridge.

    • Oh, well. I tried. It didn’t really get me anywhere. If one can embrace sadness, then one can surely embrace pain and anger. The trick is to allow it to become something that can be useful, like a catalyst of something good. And that’s what I did.

      • I guess I can’t embrace sadness either! You don’t even necessarily have to release the anger in such a destructive way – I write, for example, as a catharsis, to purge the negative emotions which seethe within me. I’m glad that method worked for you, anyway – I just hope holding in that pain doesn’t lead to detonation within.

      • I used to think that I would self-detonate by holding that anger and pain, but I release them by writing too (although terribly, HAHA), and traveling, and dancing. I guess I’m blessed to be able to channel anger and pain into a burst of energy that creates endorphin and like Elle Woods (Legally Blonde) says, “Endorphin makes people happy. Happy people don’t just kill their husbands.”

        I’m single. But you get the point.

      • I’m glad you’ve found a means to channel something negative into something so positive. I guess we all manage our emotions (the mercurial and inexplicable things that they are) differently! There’s certainly no objective panacea when conquering anger or suffering. It seems you employ a much more defined and efficient method than many! Apologies if it appeared as if I was declaring an infallible mechanism of convalescence – my comment was simply a personal insight.

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